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  A Place of Healing

  “Joni’s joy in Christ through four decades of paralysis, plus now her peace despite constant grinding pain, prompts awe, and her capacity to communicate both remains stunning. This wonderfully wise book on being and not being healed is vintage Joni—a true spiritual gem.”

  J. I. Packer, professor of theology at Regent College

  “To read Joni’s book A Place of Healing is like being engaged in a delightful personal conversation with her. She is honest, bubbly, biblical, sagacious, and devoted to God and His truth. Joni shows us Jesus like few people can and encourages us in our response to Him regardless of our circumstances.”

  Dr. R. C. Sproul, chairman and president of Ligonier Ministries, and senior minister of St. Andrew’s, Orlando, Florida

  “Joni understands pain in a way that few of us will ever. My life has been profoundly impacted as I have watched her live out the message of this book. In the midst of her intensifying struggles with pain, she has given us the gift of this powerful, truth-filled handbook for facing our own challenges. She calls us to focus on the eternal purposes of our sovereign God, to cling to His unfailing promises, and to find a place of rest and healing in His never-ending love.”

  Nancy Leigh DeMoss, author and Revive Our Hearts radio host

  A PLACE OF HEALING

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  All Scripture quotations, unless otherwise noted, are taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version®. NIV®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan. All rights reserved. Scripture quotations marked ESV are taken from The Holy Bible, English Standard Version. Copyright © 2000; 2001 by Crossway Bibles, a division of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved. Scripture quotations marked KJV are taken from the King James Version of the Bible. (Public Domain.) Scripture quotations marked MSG are taken from THE MESSAGE. Copyright © by Eugene H. Peterson 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002. Used by permission of NavPress Publishing Group. Scripture quotations marked NASB are taken from the New American Standard Bible, © Copyright 1960, 1995 by The Lockman Foundation. Used by permission. Scripture quotations marked NLT are taken from the New Living Translation of the Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright © 1996 by Tyndale Charitable Trust. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers. Scripture quotations marked PH are taken from J. B. Phillips: The New Testament in Modern English, revised editions © J. B. Phillips, 1958, 1960, 1972, permission of Macmillan Publishing Co. and Collins Publishers. Verses marked TLB are taken from The Living Bible, © 1971, Tyndale House Publishers, Wheaton, IL 60189. Used by permission. The author has added italics to some Scripture quotations for emphasis.

  LCCN 2010928036

  ISBN 978-1-4347-6532-1

  eISBN 978-0-7814-0505-8

  International Trade Paperback ISBN 9781434702067

  © 2010 Joni Eareckson Tada

  Published in association with the literary agency of Wolgemuth & Associates, Inc.

  The Team: Don Pape, Susan Tjaden, Amy Kiechlin, Sarah Shultz, Erin Prater, Karen Athen

  Designer: JWH Graphic Arts, James Hall

  Image: Getty Images, dellafels. Rights managed.

  First Edition 2010

  For

  Gracie Rosenberger

  and

  Barbara Coleman

  Two of my special “pain pals.”

  Every day these women live where

  our worst fears threaten to take us;

  yet they do so with consummate trust in God

  and graciousness toward family and friends.

  Thank you, Gracie and Barbara, for

  inspiring me to do the same.

  Contents

  Thankful for These …

  Foreword

  Introduction

  1 Report from the Front Lines

  2 God and Healing: What’s the Real Question?

  3 Healer … and Lord

  4 What Benefit Is There to My Pain?

  5 How Can I Go on Like This?

  6 How Can I Bring Him Glory?

  7 How Do I Regain My Perspective?

  8 Ultimate Healing

  9 Suffering … and the Harvest

  10 Thank You, God, for This Wheelchair

  Epilogue

  Notes

  Resources

  Thankful for These …

  Healing and help. Those two words go together so well. When someone struggles with pain, a helping hand is so appreciated. And I’m no exception. Especially as I worked on A Place of Healing, for the subtitle says it all: Wrestling with the Mysteries of Suffering, Pain, and God’s Sovereignty. There were days of such physical pain that I had to wrestle to write even one page. But God graciously sent some incredibly helpful people my way.

  Like Larry Libby. I have worked with my trusty editor-friend on previous books, but never have I had to lean on him as hard as with A Place of Healing. Larry was able to hold a “stethoscope” up to my soul and give language to the stirrings and murmurs inside my heart—for that, I am eternally grateful. If anyone walks away from this book having drawn closer to God and His Word, I have you to thank, Larry.

  And I’m always leaning on Wolgemuth & Associates for help. Robert and Bobbie Wolgemuth are longtime friends with whom I have harmonized on many a hymn, not to mention collaboration on past books. They are also intimately acquainted with the path of pain I’ve journeyed on these many years, and so I thank you for your prayers, Robert and Bobbie. I’m indebted to the growing team at Wolgemuth & Associates, especially Erik and Andrew—God bless you both for opening doors for me to wheel through.

  The good folks at David C. Cook have helped give a big boost to A Place of Healing. From Dan Rich to Don Pape: Thank you for extending the Cook platform to me so that I can share my story with a new generation of readers. I’m especially grateful to Erin Prater and Susan Tjaden, who became real cheerleaders for the book, giving care and thought in refining every page and paragraph.

  There were plenty of times at Joni and Friends when I had to pull away from the computer and simply lie down to give my body a break. It takes a team of people to not only help me research and type, but to get me sitting up comfortably in my wheelchair and moving forward. My coworkers—Judy Butler, Francie Lorey, Rainey Floreen, Amy Donahue, and Jaime Chambers—deserve a round of applause for the many times they lent a hand.

  Finally, special thanks to my dear husband, Ken, who has faithfully walked beside my chair these many years, seeing me through every hurt and happiness. Ken and I pray that the insights I’ve shared in A Place of Healing will l
ift the spirits of the reader to new heights of trust and confidence in our wonderfully sovereign God—He is our very present help for every need; He is our place of healing.

  Foreword

  I have always had the deepest respect for Joni Eareckson Tada even though I have never met her in person. I have heard her talk, listened to her on the radio, purchased her artwork—actually it was my wife—and read her books. She has lived with a disability for over forty years and has done it with faith and hope. She is one remarkable person! Ten years ago I went from respecting her to becoming a fellow pilgrim with her. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with ALS—also known as Lou Gehrig’s disease. It is an incurable and fatal disease. The doctors gave me two to five years to live and most of that would be in a disabled condition. The disease robs the nerves of their ability to work and so the muscles quit working. The future is about wheelchairs, feeding tubes, and breathing assistance. Like Joni, I have outlived the doctor’s predictions. So I was excited to read A Place of Healing.

  I could not put this book down. The questions Joni asks and the struggles she shares were as if she was reading my mind. I have the same questions and struggles. I cried as I read, and occasionally I laughed. It was as if she was writing for me. I like the fact that Joni is writing in the midst of her terrible pain. I am generally not happy with people who have never walked “through the valley of the shadow of death.” I want to hear from people who are currently walking through that valley. They offer me more encouragement and hope. And this book is filled with encouragement and hope.

  Joni is honest about her pain. Even though I do not have pain with my disease, I felt she was talking to me—heart to heart and soul to soul. She is honest about the subject of healing. I have never known anyone who has been healed of ALS. I know God is capable—just as He is capable of healing Joni. But most of all she is honest about how you deal with pain, struggles, and suffering. She tells stories from her own life and the lives of others, and fills the book with quotations from the Bible (this is the best part of the book). This is a must-read for anyone who, like me, struggles each day and those who help and care for those who struggle. I can summarize the book in one word: brilliant. Or maybe encouraging. Or maybe biblical. Or maybe honest. Okay—it cannot be summed up in one word. It is the story of one person dealing with pain and struggles who, in the telling it, offers hope to to the rest of us who struggle.

  Ed Dobson,

  author of The Year of Living Like Jesus and Prayers and Promises When Facing a Life-Threatening Illness

  Introduction

  The fact of suffering undoubtedly constitutes the single greatest challenge to the Christian faith, and has been in every generation.

  —John Stott

  It was a beautiful Sunday morning, and services were over. I was wheeling across the church parking lot toward my van when a handsome young man, who introduced himself as David, stopped me.

  “Are you Joni?” he asked.

  I smiled, nodding yes.

  “Oh great!” David exclaimed. “I’m a visitor here, and I was hoping I would run into you today. I’ve really been praying for you.”

  My eyes got wide. “Really? What about?”

  “Your healing. I’ve been praying for you to get out of your wheelchair.”

  At that point, my spirit hesitated. David was a visitor. He came to church hoping to see me, and he wanted to see me healed. I can’t tell you how many people I’ve met over the years who’ve done the same thing. In churches, on street corners, in convention centers, and in busy shopping malls. Some of those encounters have been a little overwhelming—almost frightening.

  But not on this day, with this young man.

  Still, I had to fight off eerie feelings. Several times, years ago, a group of men showed up at our farmhouse door in Maryland, all having been led there by the Holy Spirit to either heal me … or marry me! So perhaps you can understand my reticence.

  “Well, I never refuse a prayer for healing,” I assured David.

  This guy wasted no time in getting down to business, launching into what sounded like a prepared speech. “Have you ever considered that it might be sin standing in the way of your healing? That you’ve disobeyed in some way?” Before I could answer, David flipped open his Bible—both of us still in the middle of the parking lot—and read from the gospel of Luke, “Some men came carrying a paralytic on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus” (5:18–19).

  He closed his Bible and reminded me that the paralyzed man in the story was healed. And I could be, too, if only I would but confess my sins and have faith to believe. He added, “Joni, there must be some sin in your life that you haven’t dealt with yet.”

  I told him that my conscience was clean before the Lord (he looked a little skeptical about that) and reiterated that I always welcome prayers for healing. I thanked him for his concern but told him I didn’t think this was a matter of faith.

  For David, that just didn’t add up. According to what he had been taught, if I was a Christian, and if there was no known sin in my life, and if I had faith that God could heal, well, then … I would be healed. Didn’t God want everyone healed? Didn’t Jesus want everyone well? Of course He did! It was so obvious!

  “Joni, you must have a lack of faith. I mean, look at you. You’re still in your wheelchair!”

  I thought for a moment about the biblical account he had just read me and asked him to open up his Bible again to that same passage, Luke 5. “Okay,” I said, “you’re right about one thing, David. Right after they lowered the paralyzed man through the roof and to the floor in front of Jesus, he was healed. But look at verse 20. It says that when Jesus saw the faith of those four friends, the man was made well.”

  “So?”

  “Don’t you see? He didn’t require anything at all of the disabled man. What He was looking for was faith in those men who had lowered him through the roof. God doesn’t require my faith for healing. But He could require yours. The pressure’s off me, David. If God has it in His plan to lift me out of this wheelchair, He could use your faith! So keep believing, friend; the pressure’s on you!”

  David didn’t like that point of view. Again, it wasn’t according to his script. It wasn’t what he had been taught. According to all his teachers, if a person wasn’t healed, it had to be a problem with him, with his faith.

  Faith, however, is not the focus.

  The focus is always on Jesus Christ and His will for those who suffer. To possess great faith is to believe in a great Savior, and Scripture welcomes the faith of anyone who believes in Jesus’ will to heal. In the days to come, that “anyone” could well be David.

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  Do we even need to say it?

  God certainly does heal today, and there’s no doubt about it. To render any other verdict would be to ignore both the clear witness of God’s Word and the heartfelt testimonies of many grateful and exultant brothers and sisters around the world who want nothing more than to bring glory to the name of their Savior and Healer.

  But reflecting on my recent parking–lot experience with David, perhaps that very statement—“God heals today”—requires closer scrutiny.

  Does He always heal? Does He heal everyone who comes to Him in faith? Does He miraculously intervene in the lives of all who pray for release from migraine headaches … multiple sclerosis … prostate cancer … a bad case of the flu … or, in my case, chronic pain?

  And if not, then why not? And why does He heal some and not others?

  Notice I didn’t even bring up quadriplegia with spinal cord injury in this context. Those long-ago and faraway days of pleading with God to raise me up on my feet and out
of my wheelchair are behind me. Oh, I’m still in my wheelchair. But I’m happy. And on that level, I have been healed. Big time.

  Right now the big question for me is all about pain. (Yes, I know you’re probably wondering how it is that a completely paralyzed person can feel pain at all. Trust me. At my age at least, one can.) Frankly, if this pain weren’t so chronic, so jaw splitting at times, I’d leave it alone. But just as I used to tell Him years ago when I was first injured, I find myself once again praying, Lord, I can’t live like this for the rest of my life!

  At least I don’t think I can. That remains to be seen.

  Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not “taking back” anything I’ve written about miraculous healing in articles or even in my 1978 book, A Step Further. (Could that really have been over thirty years ago?) But this ongoing urgency has forced me to look back on familiar Scriptures and give them another turn or two, examining them a little more closely from new angles—and from a different perspective.

  My friends, this is new turf for me.

  As Joshua once told the children of Israel, “You have never been this way before.” And so it is with me. I have never been in such a place in all my life. But just as the Israelites found the Lord on both sides (and in the middle) of the Jordan, so I am finding His presence, His comfort, and His faithfulness in this strange and alien country of increased suffering.

  This book isn’t meant to be a detailed and exhaustive theological review of every verse in the Bible that seems to allude to miraculous healing. Much of why God does what He does and heals when He heals remains cloaked in divine mystery, and I certainly won’t be the one unwrapping those things in these few pages. Instead, I will be inviting you to join me on a contemporary and very personal journey as I return to some foundational questions about life and healing, suffering and perseverance, heartbreak and hope.

  I also want to encourage us to look up from day-to-day battles to focus on that time of ultimate healing awaiting us all. The time when every eye will be opened, the ears of all those who are deaf will be unstopped, the tongues of those who cannot speak will shout for joy, and the lame shall leap like deer (Isaiah 35). Oh what a glorious day that will be!